Thee Time Has Come

DEAR SUMMER I KNOW YOU GON MISS ME, FOR WE BEEN TOGETHER LIKE LIKE NIKE AIRS AND CRISP T'S....

How do I put this to yall...? Sheeesh. Going on my adventure, the one I call LIFE. A lot of my peers claim to be living life, YOUR REALLY NOT THOO. Your still living someone else's life, whether its your parents life in their house or your favorite music artist life( which is impossible). I'm too(SO) far gone, I mean my body is still physically in this office chair, but my mind..WOOW its GONE. I'm past myself , for me there is no turning back!

I'm only showing love where I feel like showing love, cause fake niggas can always show love, but they are transparent, and excuse me if I sound rude, because I mean to be a "ASSHOLE"!!! LmaOO. But I'm a asshole to the right people, I know most likely if your reading this blog and I fuck wit you, its because your going somewhere in your life. I wish you all the best of luck.

I'm sorry to all of you who I DID NOT get to see, and shout out to those I did see!

I could almost cry right now YO, but I know my NANA is looking down on me, and would NOT allow it. She's my ULTIMATE motivation.

Shout out to big cuzz0 Richina. I love you dearly, I know you do not read my blogs, but this is necessary. This women has saved my life, not physically, but future wise. I learned a lot from this women, and hopefully I see her in Las Vegas.

Shout out to thee GROVE in Ontario for thee blueprint of FREDD0 & holding meeh down!

Shout out to 618 for my improvement of people skills, and for them holding me down!

Shout out to AZ for me finding love, and my outstanding family out there ALL holding me down!

Shout out to thee DINO//SB for giving meeh a deeper trendsetting movement, hahaaa and holding meeh down!

Shout out to my FAMILY!!! You guys are so supportive, I appreciate it all.....

and like that, I toss thee deuces to yuuh and thee "World"...[[2months]]...

...fading....fading...FADING.......................BLACK

My "dad"

Growing up ALL I wanted was a father figure.

I got 15% of that. What did I learn from my dad..? I learned, that no matter how hard the world gets, you can't stop, KEEP HANDLING BUSINESS. I learned this by example, it wasn't taught to me. BE the OPPOSITE of my dad. It has been me, my mom, and my sister(the three of us), my mother and sister raised me, but fuck it!

I never could understand why that nigga was distant or why he put my mom through so much pain. To me he is not a man, he is not a grandfather to my future children.

He cooked and sold drugs while the three of us lived under the same roof. Known in Santa Ana as a drug icon, there was people constantly at our house, in our shed in the back yard. Evil all around me. I use to think this man rolled his own cigarettes in a shoe box top, come to realize later in life when I started smoking that they were joints. SMH. There were a couple of drive-bys and, when he owed Cubans money, they came to OUR house. My mother was harassed until she gave them the money that they were looking for. Soon after that incident we moved to Upland, CA (start of the 909). I was only 5. I idolized him then though. I have gained NO positive influences from him. My mom and him tried to make things work again after we moved, but it was clearly not meant to be.


<------Our old house, this is what it looks like now.

When I reached 3rd grade I started visiting him on the weekends, on and off. No child support (bum ass nigga). So when I got old enough, I stole money from him (4th grade). I starting developing a little hate for him, but I always protected him from others, example: my mom talks about him A LOT, and I would tell her not to talk about him "he my dad", not like he didn't deserve it, but I felt like I should be the only one who hated him. Weird. He started buying me little shit so it looked good on him. Buy me shit and brag, "FUCK YOU!!! Nigga its your duty" that's how I felt, and I'm sure how my mom felt.

Second semester 8th grade I moved in with him, I rebelled against my mom, and this was suppose to be my discipline. Well, if I couldn't get along with my mom what the FUCK makes you think I could get along with my STEP MOM..?? Long story short we had major issues with each other. Fought my dad too much, and the nigga would not let me call mom dukes. So the last day of school I stole 120$ and ran away from my dad's house. My mom came to scoop me on a low key mission! lol

Didn't really start fucking with that nigga again till 11th grade//senior year. By then I could see right through my dad. Now days I'm more positive towards my dad, still have mixed feelings about him, theres times I'm glad to see him, and times I say fuck him. I look at him and see a missed opportunity, on both of our parts. You know like what we could have been (no homo). How different I would be, being raised by both parents. As I grow I start to notice how I resemble him. I'm tied to this man. Shit kills me inside. He's making cake now, doing car shows etc. But he is still a cheap ass.

My kids will have a dad, a FATHER they can rely on, and love, and respect, and they will ALWAYS have my support. This is life and I understand that...just venting to yall...

LOW KEY HE POSTED THE BLOG UNDER THIS ONE, when I went to his Barbershop on Tue.

its a big AL thang;;BIG AL SAID IT;;HUH;;;;;

GOOD LUCK

ASSUMPTIONS

SHEEESH.

So people of this world, are always judging me, comparing me, and ASSUMING shit! This gets annoying.

Now I am saying this hypocritically because I am thee king "Assumer". The thing about me, is that I put actual thought, reason, & logic behind my assumptions. My friends and I have came to the conclusion that I am 96% accurate with my assumptions. LOL. I take the time to read people and their situations, which is another passion of mine, and also helps friends of mine.

The number one assumption about ME is " ALFRED, YOUR SUCH A HOE". Damn people, read my blog below and get to know me a little.

Hmm lets see what would make you ASSume that I am a "HOE"-(a woman[person] who engages in promiscuous sexual intercourse, usually for money; prostitute; harlot; strumpet.), hmm I have a lot of women friends( which can't from the fact that the majority of my family is women?), I flirt (occasionally to keep women's confidence up), Oh and I be wit them bad bitches that keep women jealous, I guess!

I have standards, standards that people I involve myself with have to or already met. the women I have sex with KNOW me, respect me, and most likely love me as a friend. I choose to stay away from relationship because I have other focuses in life, I don't have time, and I hate to put labels on people. Don't smother me, because I enjoy being free, the world is my girlfriend.( but that's another blog). I don't purposely make women feel like shit after we do the grown up (if we do the grown up)I was raised by women, and know how they should be treated. So Ladies please stop this, and get to know me first...

THANKS.

P.S. THIS IS TO THE BOLD, ME PUTTING THIS BLOG HERE IS ME BEING NICE, NEXT BATCH OF WOMEN WHO CALL ME A HOE(IN A NON JOKING WAY) YOU ARE GOING TO GET THE FUCKIIN BUSINESS.....so thank you for understanding me.

Fading Away From Friendships

Don't you hate when somewhat strong relationships fade away. To the point where you have to do A LOOOT of catching up. Those are actually the good ones. Some you can't even catch u with. The worst part about catching up is that you know its going to be a while before you talk to them again. You will NEVER be as close to that person as you once were. Both of you have grown and changed, some stuff you may have had in common, you no longer have in common.

I often have dreams that all my friends(every friend I have ever had) all lived in the same area as me, no matter where I'm at. When I really think about it though, that would disrupt me meeting new people which is a passion of mine.

My consistant friends reside in Ontario, CA "the GROVE" (grove ave.). Moved to Ontario in 4th grade. Been rockin with niggas out there every since too. Boogy,Sparks, Freddie, & Roby. Niggas way go back.

<-----WOOLVES

I'm just thinking hard right now. Shout out to *Jenifer Escalante*
Just chopped it up with her right now, and she low key encouraged this one, miss our old friendship YO.

But now its time to get to these other friends

Easy To Know Me

SIKE, in the title I basically mean that I am "MAKING" it easy for everyone to get to know me. This is a goodbye gift for those who don't fully know me. Well it's for everyone cause no one really knows me. I feel like I'm leaving Earth. lol. this will also be on my page when I leave.

PERSONALITY- The visible aspect of one's character as it impresses others.

I posses ALOT OF THIS. The personality you see today, comes from change. It represents the change and growth of Alfred Carr. I use to be a trouble maker when I was younger; getting into fights, being a disruption in class, mouthing off to authorities, and being disobedient to my parent(s). One day I got tired of the image I had, I knew deep down inside I was/am a nice guy, so I pulled it out of me. I was tired of having to watch my back, because I was fighting Mexicans(in well known gangs) all the time, the stress I was putting on my mother, and my academic failure due to bad behavior. It took a couple months to perfect it, but I became the most positive person I know. You may wonder why "fredd0" jokes around so damn much or why I'm always cheesing even when it seems like a bad situation or everyone around me is pissed off. I joke and laugh mainly for others enjoyment, okkk I'm lying like shit, I love to entertain myself, but I know me entertaining myself(acting a ASS or some shit) also brings a smile or laughter to another person's face. I ROAST(clown,cap,shoot,make fun of) people often, Its because I believe everyone in the world shares my sense of humor(which they don't)I am VERY sarcastic which to smart people is funny.


Adjectives
SARCASTIC
BOLD
BLUNT
FUNNY
MENTALLY CUTE
CRAZY
WEIRD
OPTIMISTIC
ADVENTUROUS
POSITIVE
CHILL

.If I have a ignorant moment I blame it on my dad! LMAO

.My life has a certain focus on avoiding the BLACK
STEREOTYPES.

.I show RESPECT where respect is given.

.If I love you,you are consistent in my life.

.You ARE going to Love me, DO NOT try to avoid it.

.I say random things, not only because it just popped up in my head, but because I
break ALL conversation laws, I like to be random on purpose JUST for reactions.

.My life is like a artistic low budget foreign film.

.I love SEX, but does not control my life nor actions.

.MUSIC is a BIG part of my life.

.I always end up with the cool crowd(even tho I'm NOT cool) lol

.I HAVE STANDARDS(in EVERYTHING I DO).&Despite people labeling me as a HOE.
(blog coming soon.)

.I play the GAME based on how I feel.

.I HAVE THEE BEST FAMILY IN THE WORLD

.OH YAHH, annnd I DO WHAT I FUCKIIN WANT!!!

bSp vol 1 (lets go back) MIXTAPE

A+ records 3rd Mixtape drop. I'm late this actually came out 3 days ago. Go download that A.S.A.P. Hopefully by now you are familiar with the art of these mixtapes and they seem to get better with time.

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