Monday, October 5, 2009

Thoughts of a WEIRDO...


Friends...?? wait friends with benefits..?? ohh ya that's was the one. Can women handle that role?? lol, well, my past will say..."FUCK NO" Someone always catches feelings...RIGHT??

If its "no big deal" why make one(big deal)?? ...sound like a woman? Agreement? I would have rather stayed friends too, that's the sad part. I guess human beings have poor self control, well I'll admit to that.

I'm definitely looked at like the bad guy, ALWAYS, maybe I was trying to spare this girl's feelings, kinda cared about what she thought and all...so yah, I held my tongue, it is my understanding not everyone can handle the truth. Truth is, after the first weekend, she got clingy(according to me), and borderline annoying the week after. I am a weirdo, I am very social, BUT I'm a weirdo who still has problems. Friends with benefits should not really spend that much time with each other. Is it wrong to keep stress in your life to yourself? I like time to myself, alot of it, especially at this point and time in my life. I reflect on my life and this new adventure I been on for a couple of months.

The world is bigger than her(you). Getting mad that we don't hang out is DUMB...WAIT, and getting mad about TEXT is EVEN DUMBER, Guess we can call those actions dumb and dumber?? lol...right? Ohhh lets get disrespectful, it would definitely be the FIRST time..cause I know she's not serious. I have other friends, I have myself, and I had her. I enjoy kicking it with all of the above....especially myself. All this extra shit is just drama to me, and THEE EXACT MOMENT that drama is introduced into a friends with benefits relationship it is automatically compromised. We can never go back to doing what we were doing, I would like to still be her friend though.

So wait a friend understands who you are though right?? lol not really...you can say I change, or you can accept the fact that you never really knew me in the first place. She said she will "give me a chance to grow some" LMAO....wow sounds like a childish challenge, you don't have to motivate me to keep it real with you...

1 comment:

  1. She never knew the real you in the first place, so she can keep it moving. It's not you that needs to grow, it's her. A FWB situation is just that...a FWB. In that situation, you have to know your role, and it is apparent that she doesn't. You don't kick it with your FWB 24/7. You don't talk to them constantly...no. A FWB is nothing but a level up jumpoff...a person you can talk to and be cool with but can also smash when the time calls for it.

    Sounds like chick needs to sit back and reflect for a minute.

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