San Antonio

Can't sleep, that's usually how these blogs go!

Anyway San Antonio is NOT what I expected...at all. The thought of a big city in a state you never thought you would be in sounds like it has alot of potential and chances to empress.

Me, I'm all about fun times and memories, basically just going hard. Which can be recieved in a big city. If you would have asked me in August "where do you think you'll have more fun, in Wichita Falls, tx or San Antonio, tx??" I would have said San Antonio without a doubt, hands down.

Ironically, that's a big hell no. I go out and party with associates or my "one" friend Patton, but it's not all that. I tell people that I'm having more fun than I am, just because I expected to, and I still low key think that I should be. I think that's my pride not letting my friends see how much I really miss them, and how I'm kinda struggling.

I feel like I'm holding back as far as friends are concerned, because my tech school friends were dope as hell. I could phone them and have a function of some type within minutes. I could walk next door and have a serious convo...even a man to man convo. The people out here are shady and have no sense of frienship, it's all about getting ahead of the game. My mentality is "any new friends I make here will not compare to my other friends". I came here opened minded and optimistic, and I already have became fatigued with the thought.

I miss my friends.

On a plus side, I have communicated with my family way more than I did while I was away from home in Florida and in tech school. My family has been the ones keeping me level headed. I love my family, and I miss California!!! I will be going home next month, which should give me a whole new perspective on life, and the things I need to accomplish. It will be like Gatorade.

"it's not god punishing you, it's the devil trying to destroy your spirit, and lead you to darkness"

-mom dukes

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