2010

Happy New Year!

Late as fuuck right??

Give me a break on this blog shit too! Like anyone still reads...PSSHHH

Where do I start??

I am currently on my last day of vacation in California. This vacation was much needed, not only to reflect on my past and compare it to how I have grown, but also to spread knowlede to others, about whats going on in my state!!!

I notice that when I come to Cali my friends decrease, the numbers just get shorter and shorter. I spent a lot of time with family this time, didn't overbook, and basically threw my "Throwback Pussy" out the window. I'm stronger from that!

In the end family is all you will have, cherrish them hold them, joke and laugh with them, and try not to be easily irritated. I love my family YO, and low key anybody that loves me, loves them too, cause they are the reason I am the person I am!

I kinda debated mentioning this next topic/person. I met a nice young woman (who's name will remain anonymous) at a stop light frat party. Low key I met a couple of women that night, but some how she climbed that long weird fredd0 ladder! lol that sounded weird. we have been talking for a while and I decided that I like her, A LOT! which doen't happen too often. I feel like she matches me and my weirdness, she is NOOT affraid to "go there" she's down, and is (at the moment) living up to her ride or die mentallity...in my life. I basically talk to this woman everyday, which puts me DIRECTLY in the cake catergory!!! She's real low key as far as other peoploe knowing about her. I give this woman a loooot of my personal time, and really give two shits about doing anything else. It's weird that my vacation didn't really wedge us apart, it was pretty consistent. That's enough of that weirdooo though, she might read this and get excited!!! :-)

My NY was pretty dope, I seen a couple of friends I haven't seen in a minute. Got EXTRA faded like I'm suppose to! Popped that ROSE..lol My celebration was good for 2010 morale, and now I have the fuel to go out and do meeh in Texas. I'm still high key shittin on niggas and fees, its not even funny yo, kinda sad...shed a tear for them...

THEN I'MA PICK THE WORLD UP....AND DROP IT ON YA FUUUUUUUUCKiiN HEAD!!!

Holiday thoughts

So, you can't please everyone. You can sure as hell try, but your just goin to fuck yourself over. The funny thing is that people know that you can't please everyone, yet they will still get mad, sad, and brand new. Eveyone wants to be your priority...well I'm screaming out fuuuhhk that. I'm too grown and too much of a realist to get caught up in that. Like yo I'ma start taxin people for fredd0 time..

I feel like I grew up from holidays!! Like I'm nooooot gonna sit under a Christmas tree as a grown ass man!! Ya kno..let's just buy ourselves and the children shit and call it JESUS's bday!!! People forget that last part and it's sad that the media pours material items into the weak minds of human beings! Christmas to humans is like a electronic give away day!!!

[[2weeks later]]
I hung out with everyone that I felt was important...maybe next time Pops!!! Hahaaa

Extremely Pissed off

Like 5 of my blogs got deleted....what the fuuuuuck. Nooooot happy....

I had a new fire saucy one too...

San Antonio

Can't sleep, that's usually how these blogs go!

Anyway San Antonio is NOT what I expected...at all. The thought of a big city in a state you never thought you would be in sounds like it has alot of potential and chances to empress.

Me, I'm all about fun times and memories, basically just going hard. Which can be recieved in a big city. If you would have asked me in August "where do you think you'll have more fun, in Wichita Falls, tx or San Antonio, tx??" I would have said San Antonio without a doubt, hands down.

Ironically, that's a big hell no. I go out and party with associates or my "one" friend Patton, but it's not all that. I tell people that I'm having more fun than I am, just because I expected to, and I still low key think that I should be. I think that's my pride not letting my friends see how much I really miss them, and how I'm kinda struggling.

I feel like I'm holding back as far as friends are concerned, because my tech school friends were dope as hell. I could phone them and have a function of some type within minutes. I could walk next door and have a serious convo...even a man to man convo. The people out here are shady and have no sense of frienship, it's all about getting ahead of the game. My mentality is "any new friends I make here will not compare to my other friends". I came here opened minded and optimistic, and I already have became fatigued with the thought.

I miss my friends.

On a plus side, I have communicated with my family way more than I did while I was away from home in Florida and in tech school. My family has been the ones keeping me level headed. I love my family, and I miss California!!! I will be going home next month, which should give me a whole new perspective on life, and the things I need to accomplish. It will be like Gatorade.

"it's not god punishing you, it's the devil trying to destroy your spirit, and lead you to darkness"

-mom dukes

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Time flies by...

So now...what can I say?? Sheesh 3 months in tech school. I have grown alot from this experience. At the end of the day any beef I had meant nothing, found out who stole my phone...and decided to let it go. Not being a bitch, but I got a new one, I bounced back on my feet, like always. I'm too shitty for these niggas anyway. The women I had problems with is out the window, either we are cool or neutral. I tied all the loose ends. Not leaving with enemies. Once again I'm on a new adventure, that's my life!!! Sheeesh, yo this time I'm bout to rip up San Antonio and nooooot let it rip me. I will know a couple of people out there, dental goes hard. So, my class...."naaaah eff that" my family. What do I say about them. We hit it off, and continued hitting it noo homo. Like any family, we had tough times (trials and tribulations), like most families do. In the end, I can honestly say that I love them, no homo, because of the shit we been through. It was very hard for me to watch everyone leave today. I had a "slight" breakdown this morning just thinking about it/listening to music. Set myself up for failure with the music. Lol marching to school was always shitty, but you know we had to get it in on the march back to the dorms ALWAYS. Ordering food at the school house cause we were all lazy as shit, or we needed to stay to study for da P.C.(Ssgt faraux voice). Taking those discouraging walks next door to take block test "ohhhhh nooooo".....hahaa. Hmmm what about GA LAB!? scary as hell, first patient everyone shitted in their pants, except Ssgt Holbrook/A1C Alexander, who went EXTRA HARD in the lab since day one. Who can forget my rediculous roast sessions with our instructor Ssgt Bender, ohhh myyy! Those were good times. Streeters beatboxing the freestyles Putnams singing...ohoooo yeeeeaaaaahh....lol.

The back of my head and being LATE to everything,

streeter's BIG inflatable lips..nappy hair..and sex drought,

Thiboaux's moster shaped body (no homo),

Coleman falling asleep while looking like Chris Brown/Drake..and snitching! lmao

Jackson's shoulders and cupcake sessions,

Sasse's alcohol addiction,

Greer being slightly retarded,

King being BLACK as STOOP.../BOOW,

Dejesus's BIG DONK...but couldn't dance...

Putnam's being a proffessional wrestler,

Patton's BIG hair,

Olivera the SPAZZ,

Lickman licking men (no homo?),

and all the TDY's

You All will be missed!!!

I'm in Love With a STRIPPER..??

WOOOOW

Just had thee dopest weekend I have had while being in Texas!

Ummm went to "Peeping Tom's".....

Wait let me tell you the whole story though. A group of friends and I went to Dallas last Sunday on a mission to turn 21, and we did....successfully! haaahaaaa. Later we met up with some good ol' flight members from good ol' B.M.T. So we all decide to go to dinner, WOMEN were invited, drinks were drank, and we all had a nice chill time!!!

NOW AFTER this event we grasp for something to do in the big city of Dallas. STRIP CLUB..?? FREAKIN AWESOME!!! lol soo we ventured out into the wild dark yonder! So when we first get there its pretty cool everyone is looking aroung kinda vibing ya know, then my friends says, "I heard if you don't tip girls out here(Dallas) then the bouncers beat your ass" lmaooo, now that's funny cause I kinda believed him, SOOOOO I started tipping! bomb chicks too, later on in the night I end up "conversing" with a mighty attractive stripper. we talked and talked and she kinda got in trouble for talking to me so much instead of "getting that money" so we go to the back and she gives me the most intimate dance ever experienced in life. So after that we developed a kinda bond for the night (FOR FREE) she sat down on my lap and just as I was about to ask for her number SHEEE asked me if we could exchange...WTF HELL yahhh...(Martin Luther King J.r. VOICE) = "IIII HAD A DREAM...TOOOOO TAKE DOOWWWWN A STRIPPER...ya digg) lol

SOOOO LIVE YUUR LiiiFE..AYEEE

Thoughts of a WEIRDO...

Friends...?? wait friends with benefits..?? ohh ya that's was the one. Can women handle that role?? lol, well, my past will say..."FUCK NO" Someone always catches feelings...RIGHT??

If its "no big deal" why make one(big deal)?? ...sound like a woman? Agreement? I would have rather stayed friends too, that's the sad part. I guess human beings have poor self control, well I'll admit to that.

I'm definitely looked at like the bad guy, ALWAYS, maybe I was trying to spare this girl's feelings, kinda cared about what she thought and all...so yah, I held my tongue, it is my understanding not everyone can handle the truth. Truth is, after the first weekend, she got clingy(according to me), and borderline annoying the week after. I am a weirdo, I am very social, BUT I'm a weirdo who still has problems. Friends with benefits should not really spend that much time with each other. Is it wrong to keep stress in your life to yourself? I like time to myself, alot of it, especially at this point and time in my life. I reflect on my life and this new adventure I been on for a couple of months.

The world is bigger than her(you). Getting mad that we don't hang out is DUMB...WAIT, and getting mad about TEXT is EVEN DUMBER, Guess we can call those actions dumb and dumber?? lol...right? Ohhh lets get disrespectful, it would definitely be the FIRST time..cause I know she's not serious. I have other friends, I have myself, and I had her. I enjoy kicking it with all of the above....especially myself. All this extra shit is just drama to me, and THEE EXACT MOMENT that drama is introduced into a friends with benefits relationship it is automatically compromised. We can never go back to doing what we were doing, I would like to still be her friend though.

So wait a friend understands who you are though right?? lol not really...you can say I change, or you can accept the fact that you never really knew me in the first place. She said she will "give me a chance to grow some" LMAO....wow sounds like a childish challenge, you don't have to motivate me to keep it real with you...